Hello and happy thanksgiving!
I just wanted to say that I’m currently back for the week on holiday. I’m fortunate enough to attend a school that has a week-long thanksgiving break versus a break that starts halfway through the week.
I am so happy to be back and to see friends that I went to high school with, but honestly a part of me wants to go back to school. I feel like I have changed so much within the past two and a half months that coming back here reminds me of the person I used to be, one who wasn’t as in touch with herself and who didn’t make the right choices sometimes.
It reminds me of a lot of the tough times I had back in high school, and setting foot on my high school campus brought back some of that negative energy that I wished I could expel.
It makes me realize how liberated and happy I am being able to explore my own personality and interests without the compromising atmosphere of popularity and cliques blinding my intentions. This Thanksgiving, I am so thankful for a school environment where I can be myself and be happy accepting that.
I’m also so thankful for amazing and supportive parents who will do anything in their power to make my endeavors happen and to make my dreams a reality. Sometimes being home is hard because they see that you’ve changed and you have. You don’t always see eye to eye but there’s always that underlying love that makes you hug them at night and tell them how much you love them.
Nothing is ever going to be perfect no matter how ideal I think everything is right now because your hometown is always going to stick with you. I never want to forget my roots, including all the pain and mistakes that came with it.
On a more academic note, I have a presentation that is this Tuesday that I thought was on Friday, which means I have to speed my process and stress a little extra. I haven’t started!
I also have to watch an entire movie and write a reflection on it because I missed the actual event for my psychology class due to a Gaieties performance.
The performances went super well and I’ve never been so satisfied with a show in my life! Granted, I’m still super scared to listen to the MP3 track that’s sitting in our shared cast folder right now, but I’ll work the courage up eventually. We all hate hearing our own voices, ESPECIALLY when it comes to singing.
Back to schoolwork.
I also have to read 4 chapters of my psychology textbook because I have a final next Monday! And then I come home the next day 🙂
It’s kind of crazy thinking that I’m going to be coming home again in less than two weeks. It makes me feel like everything is so temporary.
It’s almost 2020.
I’m having an existential crisis.
Okay, signing off so I can go procrastinate and ponder some more.